My wife’s drinking is escalating again, this week she’s consumed nearly 100 units of alcohol. Actually 93 units to be absolutely precise, well those are the ones I know about. I can’t remember the last time we had sex with her being sober, probably five years ago when she was pregnant.
I’m stopping being angry about the drinking, it does me no good. She hides from the damage it’s doing to her and the family. I grew up with alcoholic parents, they were much worse than her. Sadly, her alcoholism damages not just her but those around her.
If I was posting this on something like mumsnet, I’d get the casual LTB that is often handed out, but as anyone knows who lives with an alcoholic partner and parent, its bloody tough. Especially as I’m the stay at home parent with no income of my own.
I’d like her to go to AA just so she can have a shared experience of meeting other alcoholics and I’d like her to go back to her alcohol therapy group. She needs to take some responsibility, some understanding of the damage it does and to grow up a little.
Tonight, I’m having difficulties sleeping, she seems to think that by bribing me with a blowjob makes the problem go away. It won’t. My resentment over her alcoholic selfishness, will grow until I loose my temper and snap again. Then we are back to square one. Especially as far as the children are concerned. They are already on a child protection plan cause by me snapping several times last year, one of which culminated with me punching her.
I wish I had a recipe of how to solve this.