Unknown Pleasures, love will tear us apart again

Ta….. DUM(strum)……Ta DUM(strum)….. dada dada dada ddddddaaaaddadadada Ta DUM Ta DUM dadadadadadadadadadadadaaaaaadaaadaaa DUM.

The intro to the seminal track by Joy Division, is ricocheting around my skull.

When routine bites hard,
And ambitions are low,
And resentment rides high,
But emotions won’t grow,
And we’re changing our ways,
Taking different roads.

Then love, love will tear us apart again.
Love, love will tear us apart again.

Why is the bedroom so cold?
You’ve turned away on your side.
Is my timing that flawed?
Our respect runs so dry.
Yet there’s still this appeal
That we’ve kept through our lives.

But love, love will tear us apart again.
Love, love will tear us apart again.

You cry out in your sleep,
All my failings exposed.
And there’s a taste in my mouth,
As desperation takes hold.
Just that something so good
Just can’t function no more.

But love, love will tear us apart again.

I saw JoyDiv a year before Ian Curtis committed suicide, I understand now.

I’m sitting in softplay, my children are running around having fun, there is a mist of tears in my eyes and a pain in my eyes, nose and throat as I hold the tears back. The nightmares have moved from sleep to wakefulness.

This is the start of my decent.

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